Loved You, Lost You

An all-consuming sadness, hovers daily at my door,

Watching, waiting, wondering; will I bow to it once more?

Emotions in a turmoil, surely time enough has passed,

Grief has no agenda; will it end or will it longer last?

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I raise the phone to speak to you, as so many times before,

Then realise with such sorrow, its something I can do no more,

I wonder, when the last we spoke, during that final call,

Did you sense it, did you know, that no more words we’d share at all?

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I see your face before me, it’s there most every day,

For you are staring back at me, from the mirror as I gaze,

It’s oft been said we look alike, from childhood to the end,

I fought it fiercely many years, your youthful looks became my friend.

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Through all your pain and suffering, I thought I was prepared,

But as your beating heart lost pace, I felt so fearful, frightened, scared.

Around me they’re gently hovering, so many words unsaid,

I yearn a sense of closure, to calm this chaos in my head.

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I’d ask just one more time again, to hold your withered hand,

But one would turn to more, I know, to say goodbye I’d not withstand,

Acceptance, wrap me in your warmth, I hope it’s one day soon,

I know you’re out there, watching me, among the stars beneath the moon.

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