No more will self-hurting relieve me of pain,
No more can I ignore the not knowing,
No more a distraction, my head in the sand,
My fear coming true, my senses are reeling.
Where once before I could block out my cares,
Where once before I could simply pretend,
Where once before, there were options anew,
Limitations abound, I know this will end.
Gone are the times when they’d try something more,
Gone are the days, no more tests,
Gone are the trials, the ‘give it a go’s,
Exhausted, brick walls, they have done but their best.
No money could buy an alternative path,
No money could pave the way fairer,
No money can change an inevitable end,
The path now, the finale feels nearer.
What more can I do, can we do to relieve?
What more can be done, comfort givers?
What more now can those at the top change our game?
They can do nothing more, their hopes tiny slivers.
Fault cannot lie at the door of the healer,
Fault cannot lie at the door of the cross,
Fault cannot lie, now, with past misadventure,
Nobody at fault, all know impending loss.
Funny how sadness can free us from hate,
Funny how sadness can rewrite feelings past,
Funny how feelings can change in a heartbeat,
So much more so, when those beats near their last.